alta tensão contra céu azul.

I must be a thousand people - or more. I want to do something - for a little while -, then do something completely different - not for long. I don't want to have enough time to get sick of whatever, I want to not bore myself to death. In your eyes I am clueless, in my spirit I am truly clueful - and both our heads confused by what our eyes/spirits see/feel. If I want it all, maybe I want nothing, not really, most certainly will get nothing if I chase everything at the same time. But when's the right time for what? I want to be me, and to look into your eyes and see that you see what I can't see but through them. I want to sit beside you and enjoy who you are. I don't know why it is so important, but it is. I don't know why you are so important, but you won't leave. You stick around, certainty I could so very much do without. I'm sure I want to wake up now. Even if you're nothing like what I imagined. It won't tear me apart. You are neither better nor worse. Just real. I'm giving my thumbs up to reality.

Don't change your mind. You'll find that things are the way they are and that's all there is to it. There's no other place besides now, no other time besides here. And here and now you must grow up to become who you've always been.

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Oh yes. I'm mocking the serious life I'm supposed to be living.

As I recognize you I'm praying to myself 'God bless you'. I shall never have you - like I never had you - again. Whatever prayer is, it is always to yourself. Sounds like something you would say. Sounds like something I should sing about one day. When that day comes, I want you to be sitting in a chair right in front of me, listening to me for the first time while I bid you that more-than-dued-farewell. My feet do keep itching for me to go places, still I got one of them stuck in your door. And you don't even live there anymore. I would burn it down, but I need that foot. And I would shoot you down too, but I need that heart you stole from me.

God bless you for stealing it.

story of a family.

'Wish you were here', dos Fleetwood Mac.

Essa era a vossa música, disseste. E eu lembrei-me da história que me repetiste já tantas vezes, sempre como se fosse a primeira. Nunca me canso de a ouvir. E volta e meia, quando desisto de acreditar no amor, antes de desistir corro para a gaveta e leio todas aquelas cartas que o pai te escreveu. Sou parecida com ele, estás sempre a dizer. Mas também sou parecida contigo. E quero guardar dentro de mim um pedaçinho desse grande amor que vocês viveram. Porque fui esse amor antes de ser qualquer outra coisa.

The song is over

&

done.

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But I can still hear the music.

Faz-me lembrar aqueles verões no sul de França.


Aqueles que ainda lá não passei.

















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- Say, do you have enough room in your pockets

for all of those dreams?

- Well yes I do, sir. You see, I'm like a kangaroo. And my entire body is a pocket for the million dreams I dream on a daily basis.

Ri.

Chora.

Agora diz qualquer coisa como se o sentisses mesmo.
Recita um poema qualquer, como se fosse água a ferver que te escorrega pela garganta abaixo, queima.
Chá de jasmim. Acabadinho de fazer.

Não te esqueças da pontuação.

Quando for vírgula, franze ligeiramente o sobrolho.

No ponto final, deixa que o teu olhar desamparado faça tombar-me o vestido aos pés. Ele tem um cair bonito. Fica-lhe bem.

E a ti fica-te bem seres tão humano.

[Fica-te bem e não sai particularmente caro ao bolso do comum espectador.]

Pequeno

grande

conto de fadas.



Quero que sejas morada dos meus sonhos.